Being a Solitary

Being new to magick I have missed out on a lot of background information from the recent past (1970’s to present).  I have been interested in the GD for about 2 to 3 years.  I found an order that I like.  As I further investigate joining, all this bickering and mud slinging suddenly comes to the forefront, muddying the bright light into a dim brownout.  It seems there is jealousy over who has rights to names and trademarks.  There is jealousy over claims of linage, contact with Secret Chiefs and new magick added to current and future curriculum.  One group can’t stand it and has to say something and in turn the other group at the butt end of the comment or accusation feels the need to defend…Back and forth, back and forth.  The Great Work gets buried in all this rubbish.  I find myself emotionally taking sides in something I do not understand and really have no business taking sides in.

When I asked myself (higher self?) should I join the GD?  I get a mixed answer of yes … but.  I have been hell bent on joining this particular group.  If I had the money I would have by now.  This week I have finally made the decision to not join any group at this time.  I will stay solitary for now.  I actually felt a weight lifted from me after making this decision.  It made me wonder if in part our financial situation was a protection, keeping me from joining.  I know I want to meet others, learn from others and experience a physical initiation…but it must not be the right time yet.  So, back to being a solitary.

One of the GD groups has been trying to help us solitary practitioners.  However, there seems to be something missing here and my humblest apologizes if I missed it.  What seems to be missing is direction.  What should I be doing?  What should I be reading?  What should I be practicing?

Well, I just recently found Frater A.T.L.V.’s blog with the beginnings of Direction for us solitaries.

Check out this blog post:  Frater A.T.L.V.’s blog.

I for one will be looking forward to seeing more information here.  Thank you Frater A.T.L.V. !!!